I’m keeping sunny side up, but it isn’t easy.  Presenting a smiling facade while getting my dear sweet Allison all packed up and ready to go.  Shipping necessities out today, will board her on the plane early tomorrow morning.  What a strange, wonderful, and painful time.  Sat down for a few games of Kings on the Corner last night, a last and cherished opportunity to spend time with my little girl that is all grown up now.  I was strong but eventually the tears did come hard.  I’ve known this day would come but foreknowledge doesn’t make it any easier.  There is going to be a great big empty space in my house if not my heart.  I’ll miss her laughter, her curls, her cooking, her self assurance, her wit, her art, everything that has brought me so much joy over the last 18 years.  I’m taking an extra big box of Kleenex to the airport in the morning.  Man this is hard.

And so it will be just me and my dear sweet Katie.  And she with her hyper social life, I’m going to be having a lot of alone time here at 18312.  3500 square feet of quiet and lonesome and memories.  This is where life has brought me and I’m glad but at the same time do feel melancholy.  Sad knowing that I’ll be going through one final separation in another 3 years when she too sets out on her own adventure.  I’m going to make the most of what I have left with her though.

Real Life as I know it.   As a stay at home dad for the last 20+ years, this is what my life has been all about.  Preparing my kids to be confident and curious and capable in the wide world.  I’ve done my best with Miles and Allison, and Katie soon to be.   The three greatest gifts of my life.

I’ll be back to writing about running tomorrow, today it is my kids, and especially Alli,  that are my world.

Alli & me on our trip to Coos Bay last July.  I’m going to miss her more than you can know.