The fast has broken. Ten days in the wilderness, searching for personal truths.
As soon as I figure out how to change it, my new banner will read “Promoting the Virtues of Service, Frugality, Self Sufficiency, and Endurance.” I’ll still cover running but will include more observations on the simple life. The Better Life.
A lot of meditation and introspection has set me free. Rid of so much that bedeviled me.
In the interim I finally settled, after 5 years. I gave my ex everything she asked for just to be finished. Her sad descent from international business executive to minimum wage bagel tosser bringing her the satisfaction of promise fulfilled (You’ll not get a dime!) and me utter emancipaiton. Alcohol, it can be a terrible, devastating drug, ruining families and careers.
My own personal demons too. Reconciling id, ego and super ego. Appreciating what I have instead of what is lost, by hook, crook, and the fates. Valuing ablove all else what is left after all is said and done.
What I have left, Friends. So many of you reached out to me and made me realize how blessed I am. Thank you for the inspirations, your kind words balm during my turbulent waters.
What I have left, the love and companionship of Linda Kunasek.
My own running future now in serious doubt. A single two mile run in the last two weeks. Hints of osteo arthritis in my right knee forcing me to face a future without what I’ve loved most. What I’ve built a life and career on. And what, in the end, matters least as I approach my 6th decade. I could push my luck and limits but pedestrianism ain’t that bad. Always knew it would be my final frontier, not being a golfer. The trade off is being better able to daily locomote and labor with relative ease. Not without hope though that a return may be possible sometime, seems like this particular despair has visited previously and always been overcome.
I’ve taken the Good Mother’s cue, as Spring approaches life begins anew. And with it, new life into this column. With malice towards none.
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